You're Gonna Miss This

For the last few nights, Caelyn has been coming to sleep with us when we go to bed, around 1 or 2 am. That is fine with us, plus on vacation she will be sleeping with us. She has been waking up, wanting a bottle and some cuddles.
Well last night, before we went to sleep, we crept into her room to check on her. She was trying to sleep crawl. Then, she sat up really fast and smacked her head on the bars of the crib, then laid back down, all while being asleep! Our poor little girl isn't getting any restful sleeps so now I am completely ok letting her in bed with us because she snuggles in bed, and does move a little, but not sleep crawling!

As I was laying with her in bed last night, the lights were out and she was asleep on my arm and we were laying tummy to tummy. I was struggling to fall asleep because I have a really hard time sleeping on my side or back; I need my tummy to sleep. Heck, I slept on my tummy while pregnant until the last few weeks because I just couldn't sleep any other way. I was praying for some sleep and watching her sleep. Her little face looks like the face that we saw on the ultrasound so many months ago. She was so peaceful and everytime I would move, she would cuddle closer to me.
Suddenly, the song "You're Gonna Miss This" popped into my head. I honestly have no idea where it came from! It just did.

"5 years later, there's a plumber working on the water heater dogs barkin, phones ringin, one kids cryin, one kids screamin, and she keeps apologizing, he said they don't bother me, I got two babies of my own, one's 36 one's 23, its hard to believe but you're gonna miss.. this you're gonna want this back, you're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast.. these are some good times so take a good look around you may not know it now, but you're gonna miss this."

This is why I just love Trace Adkins! But, it honestly was a very random thing to pop into my head at 2am. I looked at her sleeping on my arm and just relaxed.

I know that I will miss the times that she would snuggle with me because I know it won't last forever.

I'm in such a rush all the time to do things. In a rush to get married (ok.. I'm still going to want to do this! lol). I'm in a rush to have another baby. I want to hurry up and move away to Alaska (yes I am dead serious).. I suppose I don't realize that even though I will love my next child, I will miss the simple times with one baby and the bonding Caelyn and I have had. I will miss living in my town and living so close to family.

Today, Caelyn was screaming on the floor because she couldn't get to where she wanted to go (not crawling YET) and I just smiled and thought.. man I am going to miss her not crawling one day! Because I know when she starts to crawl, she will be everywhere.

I guess thinking at 2am is a great thing